Far Away

Welcome to Far Away! A personal blog site owned by Tsukasa Himura, part of Melody of Logic and the other sites in the Network. Here, I obviously type entries expressing on how my days go, well not everday, but whenever I get the chance. Rants, exciting/funny moments, deep feelings, etc.

(7-26-08) Bit By Bit

Mood: Content
Listening to: Elisa - Hikari
Watching: Nabari No Ou
Currently: Working on Summer Assignment

Woot! I got a lot of my summer assignment done already! I was trying to get as much as I could out of the way before... TONIGHT, when I fly off to Vietnam for about a week. There are 3 components (<- I'm starting to get sick of that word, MY TEACHERS USE IT TOO MUCH) and it takes a long time to do each of them. I just finished part 2, I'm halfway done on part 1 (<- this part takes 50 sheets of paper!!) and... I still have yet to start on part 3 (<- need to hunt for newspaper articles and pictures). Hopefully, if jet lag won't be so bad by the time I get back, I can finish the rest of the work before the last minute even!

I started this assignment around the first of July... IT ANNOYS ME SO MUCH! This is the one JUMBO assignment that has me using the printer A LOT! I hope I don't run out of black ink any time soon... I still need to scan and photocopy pictures!!!

Oh yeah, and to end with randomness: I got BURNED by Veet cream. I only have one thing to say to that, "MOM!!! I TOLD YOU THAT'S NOT SUPPOSED TO BE USED FOR FACES!!!"

(7-22-08) WHO Seriously Would?!?!?!

Mood: Debative
Listening to: Kaori Hikita - Namai No Nai Michi
Watching: Code Geass R2
Currently: Writing/Drawing

... Today during driving practice, my dad randomly said to me, "When we get to Vietnam, don't be all stuck-up to the relatives."

I wanted to crash the wheel in a different direction... But instead, I held onto it as tight as I could, trying not to let anger flow. WHAT THE HECK IS THAT SUPPOSE TO MEAN?! WHO IN THE RIGHT MIND WOULD DO THAT TO THEIR OWN FAMILY?! I'm never that way... I'm not that whatever random person he's assuming!!! This is just like that 3rd cursed year of stress bombs... WHY CAN'T COMMON SENSE PING LIKE IT USUALLY WOULD?!?!?! -falls to the table- I don't care what culture shock I face... I don't care what a big difference the environment would be from Vietnam to here... I JUST WANT A RELAXING VACATION!!!

(7-13-08) o_O;; Okay...?

Mood: Half-Asleep
Listening to: Nothing
Watching: Nothing
Currently: Getting Ready for Family Gathering

Hmm... last night, I discovered some "INTERESTING" things about one of my buddies... After that, I started, I started freaking out and screaming for my cousins like "AHHH! YOU GOTTA HELP ME! I MIGHT BE THE NEXT TARGET!!!" UGUU!!!! I guess this is where the words "some things are best not to be told" should be put in play.

ASIDE FROM ALL THAT, I was hooked to playing Super Smash Bros BRAWL, ONCE AGAIN!! More Kirby-ness! And cooking up the other opponents! Nyahaha... But we were all loud that time to. MORE SCREAMING! "AHH!! SHE'S GONNA COOK US!" "NOOOO! DON'T EAT ME!!!" "AHH!! I'M STUCK ON THIS MAP!" "OH MY GOSH!!! THEY ALL GANGED UP ON ME!!" And... uh.. randomness!

(7-12-08) "Is Being Alone... Lonely?"

Mood: Empathetic
Listening to: Within Temptation - Memories
Watching: Aishiteruze Baby
Currently: Pondering Immaterial Logic

"Is Being Alone... Lonely?"

I've heard this quote a bunch of times in a coulple of anime series I've watched. I would like to answer it... I have the answer... but I'm not sure if I'll be able to fully interpret it. It's not something that you can write in just a sentence or in a selection of words:

Let's see... being alone... It would have to depend on the cirumstances. Just physically being alone without someone around- that's the first initial step. Being alone then is fine because maybe then, you're waiting for someone, something, or are just wondering on what to do. Well, technically, that state could signify boredom too... I guess the lonliness people refer to is when they have a big stress bomb thrown at their head and they are carrying a burden on their own, eh? It's okay... then not okay... I can relate to both sides of the fence. I've seen people cry when they can't hold it in but no one understands the situation just as clear; in return, they end up carrying the burden all by themself, knowing that this is something they have to deal with, an obstacle they must overcome. Times like that, people prefer to be alone and not settle the pain upon someone else. To the other side, it's the lonliness where you overlook the world, assuming that there's no one to help you at all when there's bound to be one or two friends laying about, near or far away.

But those are all the very reasons for why I would learn, over and over again until the end of time, that it's just okay to let everything out, flush everything out... and cry. People try to cease their tears because they believe it morphs them to a braver person. That's not true... Bravery is not something you express daily to people; it's the action and risk spread on the table. It can never be denied that the tears are apart of us. Even when one claims to have given every last drop away... if it's emotion, everyone has it in them as a human being. Lonliness... depending on how we handle it, it may not be so lonely after all. Someone could just be sitting through boredom or doing their own mundane thing independently. Someone could be crying and within a few hours or days, they'll reciprocate, glad that they were able to flush everything out. Other than that... there might be someone wanting to cling onto hope for so long... but they do end up being alone either way when the darkness drops upon them... year after year...